SinfullySweet Thoughts

WomanHood - Another part of God

2006-04-08T23:23:00.000-07:00

God said....
When I created the heavens and the earth, I spoke them into being. When I created man, I formed him and breathed life into his nostrils. But you, woman, I fashioned after I breathed the breath of life into man because your nostrils are too delicate. I allowed a deep sleep to come over him so I could patiently and perfectly fashion you. Man was put to sleep so that he could not interfere with the creativity.

From one bone I fashioned you. I chose the bone that protects man's life. I chose the rib, which protects his heart and lungs and supports him, as you are meant to do. Around this one bone I shaped you. I modeled you. I created you perfectly and beautifully. Your characteristics are as the rib, strong yet delicate and fragile. You provide protection for the most delicate organ in man, his heart. His heart is the center of his being; his lungs hold the breath of life. The rib cage will allow itself to be broken before it will allow damage to the heart. Support man as the rib cage supports the body. You were not taken from his feet, to be under him, nor were you taken from his head, to be above him. You were taken from his side, to stand beside him and be held close to his side. You are My perfect angel. You are My beautiful little girl. You have grown to be a splendid woman of excellence, and My Eyes fill when I see the virtues in your heart. Your eyes - don't change them. Your lips - how lovely when they part in prayer. Your nose, so perfect in form, your hands so gentle to touch. I've caressed your face in your deepest sleep; I've held your heart close to Mine. Of all that lives and breathes, you are the most like Me. Adam walked with Me in the cool of the day and yet he was lonely. He could not see Me or touch Me. He could only feel Me. So everything I wanted Adam to share and experience with Me, I fashioned in you: My Holiness, My Strength, My Purity, My Love, My Protection and Support. You are special because you are the extension of Me.
Man represents My Image - woman, My Emotions.Together, you represent the Totality of God.

So man -treat woman well. Love her, respect her, for she is fragile. In hurting her,
you hurt Me. What you do to her, you do to Me. In crushing her, you only damage your own heart, the heart of your Father, and the heart of her Father.

Woman -support man. In humility, show him the power of emotion I have given you. In
gentle quietness show your strength. In love, show him that you are the rib that protects his inner self.

Its All Bout The Puppies!!!

2006-03-25T10:05:00.000-08:00

yes yes thats JMC's famous saying..no dont worry i aint buying into JMC's theories...i was just bored so i took a silly test.

This test was called What Breed of Puppy are You?

You Are a Golden Retriever Puppy

Tolerant, fun-loving, and patient.
You are eager to please - and attached to your frisbee.
im guessing in my case frisbee = handphone...wel aint that the truth!!

A Tribute to Queen

2006-02-11T07:50:00.000-08:00

was invited by a friend for a tribute to Queen : Queen – It’s A Kinda Magic recently which was held at Hilton KL Ballroom on the 24th Jan 2006. Four Australians played the roles of the band Queen .Free-standing tickets were priced at RM95 but yours truly got in free cause santa was a personal friend of mine!!!.it was amazing man...funny la cos we walked in n there were these gals who were all excited to see my fren...women i tell u...then only i found out they were his clients..no wonder..thats how he got the 2 tickets!!!
anyway if u asked me "so what Queen songs do u know?"...i would be like 'We Will Rock You', 'Bohemian Rhapsody'and We Are The Champions'n the list would have ended...but listening to them that nite made me realise i knew more songs that i actually thought i knew...its just that i didnt know the titles la...my friend only thought he knew 1 song that was even worse!!!

it was so much fun man...standing round this stage, air conditioned ballroom, a beer in one hand, a fag in the other, ppl appreciating good music... wat could have been better...some ppl were going crazy...carrying each other, dancing...ppl of all ages, n races...it so was cool...oh yeah apparently the bassist had a thing for me according to fren cos of the way he was looking at me n honestly this was funny la, he would stop playing look at me n starts clapping n wanting me to do so!!! hahaha ...cos my friend n i were not clapping la..my fren n i looked at each other n like good obedient children started clapping!!!.i mean cmon la u r not obligated to clap...im stil enjoying the music n moving my body!!! but no that wasnt enuff for him...n if we stopped clapping, shook his head n clapped his hands!!! we both just gave up clapping in the end n opted dancing a lil but most of the time avoiding ppl who were dancing crazily....

oh yeah wow found out from a another friend that Freddy Mercury was gay n died of AIDS after being grilled on Queen...sorry la wei not like i was a big fan of em that i would knows facts like that but thanks anyways for that useful piece of info...

anyway that was a fun nite..yeah so the vocals were not like the original but hats off to the 4 of them.. .its was a amazing..from leather to fake breasts...Freddie Mercury and the world's greatest rock band,Queen...even if not the original...it was great enough for me...thanks Santa for allowing me to share this experince with u!!!

A Dreamer

2005-12-27T02:22:00.000-08:00

I’d rather be a dreamer,

With memories of him,

For I have not the strength or will,

to shed another tear…

So i'll watch and wait,

Wait and wonder,

When will i be awakened from this dream,

But till then i'd rather be a dreamer

with memories of him....

~SinfullySweet~

Angels Among Us

2005-12-12T01:10:00.000-08:00

im shit serious when i say this...this song i heard yesterday gave me goose bumps...literally..yes n i did cry...i know i know all u ppl who know me mite be thinking heck she cries at everything!! but seriously ppl even my sis cried the first time she heard this song...i could only think of one person when i heard this song.....you are truly an Angel...ur deeply missed...i hope someday i will become half the woman , mother u were..... i promise to keep my word to u...

Angels Among Us - By Randy Travis

I was walking home from school on a cold winter's day
Took a shortcut through the woods and I lost my way
It was getting late and I was scared and alone
Then a kind old man took my hand and led me home
Mama couldn't see him, but he was standing there
But I knew in my heart, he was the answer to my prayers

Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love

When life dealt troubled times and had me down on my knees
There's always been someone there to come along and comfort me
A kind word from a stranger to lend a helping hand
A phone call from a friend just to say I understand
Ain't it kind of funny at the dark end of the road
Someone lights the way with just a single ray of hope

Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love

They wear so many faces
Show up in the strangest places
Grace us with their mercy
In our time of need

Oh I believe there are angels among us
Sent down to us from somewhere up above
They come to you and me in our darkest hours
To show us how to live
To teach us how to give
To guide us with a light of love

Angel

2005-07-27T07:36:00.000-07:00

no im not a weirdo...or in some satanic cult...if thats what ur thinking...i guessin im learning to appreciate art in whatever form it is expressed in...even if its blood on the wall! u can surely interpret it(this pic) in many ways...its exactly the way i feel..sometimes i feel like im shouting those words out and there are times it like the words are directed to me...

weird..

Everybody Hurts - R.E.M

2005-07-27T07:24:00.000-07:00

When the day is long and the night, the night is yours alone,
When you're sure you've had enough of this life, well hang on
Don't let yourself go, 'cause everybody cries and everybody hurts sometimes

Sometimes everything is wrong. Now it's time to sing along
When your day is night alone, (hold on, hold on)
If you feel like letting go, (hold on)
When you think you've had too much of this life, well hang on

'Cause everybody hurts. Take comfort in your friends
Everybody hurts. Don't throw your hand. Oh, no. Don't throw your hand
If you feel like you're alone, no, no, no, you are not alone

If you're on your own in this life, the days and nights are long,
When you think you've had too much of this life to hang on

Well, everybody hurts sometimes,
Everybody cries. And everybody hurts sometimes
And everybody hurts sometimes. So, hold on, hold on
Hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on
Everybody hurts. You are not alone

DeviantART

2005-07-21T18:25:00.000-07:00

recently my fren introduced me to deviantART...ok la im slow i didnt know bout it...kinda cool...she sent me this(hehehe some guy sent her this)..had some meaning to me..

please wait for me

theres more than what you let on when you look at me
and tonight i had to ask you…
do you love me…
you told me that you didnt know
but im almost sure that you do
i can tell from the way that you touch me
from the way that you look at me
from the way that you pull my hair out of my face
it makes me fall almost in love
everytime you look into my eyes
that deep look because i know that its there
i know that love is there
and i know that you are everything that i want
you asked me if i loved you too tonight
and i had to say not yet
because i dont know if i can ever love you
im too scared inside
i dont know if i can follow through with it
but i will let you know
that i am going to try
with everything thats inside of me
i want to love you
just please…
wait for me…

Where the hell are the pharmacists?

2005-07-14T20:57:00.000-07:00

Was listening to the radio on the way to work just now and the topic of the availability of pharmacists at pharmacies was discussed. Apparently the DJ had a migraine and when he went to the pharmacy the pharmacist wasn’t there!!!!!
Many callers actually called in to complain and relate their own experiences with the MIA pharmacists. It’s great to be a retail pharmacist. I too wanna venture into that area after working as a clinical pharmacist…why? There are shifts and the working hours are flexible…but aren’t u supposed to be at work especially at peak time? I bet most of us have experienced going to the pharmacy the pharmacist wasn’t there!!! It’s a pharmacy god damn it! the pharmacy profession got a good bashing on air...and yes I did feel the pinch too...but oddly enough I do agree man...the pharmacy profession is going to the pits as more n more pharmacists are actually only thinking of making money and not the very essence of the profession which is to provide service to the community...helping people man. This happens in franchise pharmacies and not independent ones…why? I mean don’t the independent ones lose out to the numerous chain outlets of the franchises and thus they should be the ones who want earn a quick buck or two…Seriously I’m quite embarrassed to be actually associated with this bunch of unethical people.

Some callers made good points...like for instance why does a pharmacist work 9 to 5 at some retail pharmacies when the general public actually finishes work at 5!! One person suggested getting the enforcement which is the National Pharmaceutical Control Bureau, to check on pharmacists…not only in the control of drugs but in the ethics and morality of the pharmacists…check in on whether they are actually at work and whether they are performing their job description. May be go as an undercover customer like suggested by a caller. I was sad to hear the listeners saying that every time they got to the pharmacy all the pharmacists say is what do u need and asks them to fill in their particulars in the Poison Book….oh my god!!! Where is the counseling man? We are not mere dispensers’ la…that makes me sick…I remember when my friends and I did our internship in UMMC…we were stationed at the out patient for a brief period n were surprised to find out that most of the people there in fact dispensers and not pharmacists. But the worst thing was that most of them didn’t do any sort of counseling…and I bet the head pharmacists were surprised n u could say a lil embarrassed when my friends and I questioned the function of a pharmacists in the outpatient.. And why people weren’t at least given minimum counseling? And all he could say is that they wanna minimize the waiting period for other patients and most of the patients know how to take the medication We understand that after a long long wait for their medication, people don’t want to hear some fella saying “take this like this…bla bla” especially if they have been taking the medication for years…but isn’t it our duty? Don’t they have a conscience? I mean handing out medication and expecting and assuming the patients to know what to do? My best friend once told me, “assumptions are the mother of all fuck-ups!!!” aint he right..

I didn’t agree with certain things the callers had to say. One caller said if the pharmacist is not in, why not get the retail assistant to dispense the medicine and get the customer to fill in the “book”…the “book” is for controlled medication la…haiyo…and only pharmacist who have a Type B licence can dispense such medication my dear…but cant blame the public cos may be they don’t know la…
Another guy called and said why the hell are pharmacies selling other things besides medication? This is a sticky topic… why can’t they sell things like shampoo n toothpaste esp. if they are the medicated one or for special conditions…where else are u gonna get those things huh? Being a pharmacist is to actually ensure the well being of the community which includes personal care like hygiene etc and ensuring the quality of life…so why can’t pharmacies sell these items? I do admit the community pharmacies are in fact a business la that’s why they are known as “retail” pharmacies…so that’s why they do sell other personal care items like make-up and hair dye…the callers were complaining that they are taking business away from the normal sundry shops…but c’mon people are wise enough to make their own decisions….isn’t it convenient to go to the pharmacy n buy your vitamins n also your shampoo n stuff…I mean its personal choice. the caller, “male” I believe, was complaining that Kedai Ah Chong’s shampoo will be cheaper…so go and buy ur shampoo from there la wei…doesn’t he know that pharmacies do have promotions and sales!!! And the prices are reasonable? Sheesh…I just feel u can sell whatever that is inline with personal well being. I personally kinda not like the concept of selling food items in abundance especially if they are unhealthy…I mean if its food items like Goats Milk formula(which is good for asthma patients but stinks as helll!!!), special infant formula.. etc then its fine…not snacks la..

It’s quite sad listening in to the show today and really wanted to call in and defend my kind…the ethical bunch of us… it saddens me to cos when we actually study to become pharmacists we are taught ethics and the roles of a pharmacist but I guess at the end of the day the "reason" why people wanna become pharmacist is based on the individuals’ mindset. Meeting up with the gals this Saturday for Mel’s bday…this will definitely be the topic of discussion…hmm may can ask Kim to do something since she is in the bureau …hahah im talking like she is in charge or something!!! All I know is that my friends n I have vowed and promised to each n ourselves what kind of pharmacists would we like to become and honestly the temptation of money may cause a few to breach that contract we made to ourselves…but I know ill never…I just wanna be a good pharmacist.. I really do…so hurry the hell up with the damn posting!!!

This was too sweet not to post....

2005-07-14T04:41:00.000-07:00

this i found when i was browsing thru blogs of the someone Snowflame knows...omg so bloody sweet....n since im wrecked with emotions rite now...wat the heck!!! yes i agree we need more men like this in the world!!

POEM 1:
I love you every second,
every minute of the day.
I love the way you look
at me in that very special way.
I even love the way you sulk
when we cant agree.
Because loving you has brought
a world of happiness to me.
So today as we remember the
day we joined together,
i know our love will forever grow
and we will last forever.

POEM 2:
Together,we cared enough to
face our problems.
We loved enough not to let
each other go.
And now we are even
stronger because we have
gone through so much.
I sometimes worry about
the future but with you
by my side the future
seems so much brighter.
Together we will face all
obstacles with confidence,
because we already know
our relationship can endure
even the worst of times.
You Are The Love Of My Life

Desperate Housewives

2005-07-12T21:29:00.000-07:00

i finally got to see the pilot!!! been waiting so long...i loved it...i think im gonna get addicted to this series wei...its like Sex in the City for married women...
the story is narrated by Mary Alice who shot herself one day( for reason that will be uncovered throughout the show) and she lets us in on the secret lives of the cast...

"There's Susan Mayer (Teri Hatcher), the divorcee and single mom who will go to extraordinary lengths for love; Lynette Scavo (Felicity Huffman), the ex-career woman who traded the boardroom for boredom, mixed with moments of sheer panic as the mother of four unmanageable kids; Bree Van De Kamp (Marcia Cross), the Martha Stewart on steroids, whose family is about to mutiny; and Gabrielle Solis, the ex-model with everything she's every wanted – a rich husband, a big house – so what is she doing with John, the 17-year-old gardener (Jesse Metcalfe)? And there are her neighbors, including serial divorcee Edie Britt (Nicollette Sheridan), whose romantic conquests have everyone buzzing.Then there are the men: Hunky new neighbor Mike Delfino (James Denton), a supposedly widowed plumber who has Susan and Edie vying for his attention; Rex Van De Kamp (Steven Culp), who's just told Bree he wants a divorce; Gabrielle's better half, Carlos (Ricardo Antonio Chavira), who figures he bought his wife a $15,000 diamond necklace, so she should do whatever he tells her; as for Mary Alice's newly-widowed husband, Paul (Mark Moses), there must be a reason why he's acting so suspiciously – and why he's digging up the pool in the middle of the night!"

the cast is hot u gotta admit that...Teri Hatcher...oooo la la...check out the pic i got of her...bloody freakin hot wei...and for those of u who saw Oprah...yes yes the stipper moves on this gal is flaming man!!!

n the garderner...ooo sexy , Jesse Metcalfe

the thing i like bout it is that it uses humour in everything.. a dark kinda humour to actual things that may happen in our daily lives...i guess its easier to watch something true in a lighter note...there was one scene where one of the gals said "Everyone has moments of desperation..if we can face them head on, then we know how strong we are"...that clicked...kinda thiking which desperate housewives i kinda click with...no no im not married...but their personality wise..we'll see...

cant wait till the next episode... catch it on Star World every tuesday at 9 pm...

ROCK STAR - INXS

2005-07-12T18:21:00.000-07:00

happen to catch this show called Rock Star- INXS last night on Star World(Channel 70) on Astro. really cool....even better than American Idol i tell u..
15 undiscovered talents from across the world are competing to become the new lead singer of INXS, which one of the world's most successful rock bands. Apparently its lead singer died sometime back(sorry la i didnt know)...and so the winner will get to go on tour with the band n record an album....how cool is that?

the judges are obviously the band members themselves and Dave Navarro from Red Hot Chilli Peppers and Jane's Addiction or better known to me as Carmen Electra's husband..he is a hottie..but he is supposed to be more like a mentor to the contestants..

all 15 of the contestants will be living in some mansion, basically getting used to the pampered life of rockstars...drinking champagne, eating choc covered strawberries(yummy!) etc

supposedly we, the viewers from all around the world can vote online...check out the website for more details http://rockstar.msn.com/home

i have to honestly say most of the performers are really really good...different stlyes and tones...this show is incredible...cos all of them have talent!!!! there was this one guy, Migs who sang Smells Like Teen Spirit by Nirvana and sounded really bad...i mean cmon only Kurt Hottie can do it la...but suprisingly he got the crowd going with his energy and the song like duh! another guy, J.D, who looked like he was possessed or something n touched himself in between some body spasms:) the gals are good too man...some r hot!!! i liked Daphna...but supposedly my dad said the 1st performer Jordis was really good...i missed her performance... i didnt like Tara's voice..
one gal, Suzie, forgot when to come in at the begining of the song and even forgot her lyrics but they let her stay cos of her voice and voted off Dan instead!!
and the coolest part is that dont really have breaks in between contestants...the just come out and rock on...and the stage with the audience really potrays a live concert...so thats an added bonus too...

Dahpna...she is so cool..an emotional rockstar...they were all jamming at the mansion n on the spot she sings of her dad that passed away...she sounded great n then she cried!!! poor baby...

anyway tune in tonight and thurs at star world i think round 8 pm or so... they r showing it live...trust me...it will be great...esp for u rockers out there:)
i kinda hope a gal wins hehe...

My Love for You is Real

2005-07-09T23:58:00.000-07:00

Sometimes at night, when I look to the sky,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and smile,
because I know the list could run on for miles.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotions.
The way that you care and show such devotion,
the way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the warmth of a blazing fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
lost with you forever is were I want to be.
The way that I feel when your by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, that all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies inside my heart,
how that deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling of what I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

- Scotty Wright –

Wish it was this easy...

2005-07-07T19:48:00.000-07:00

*SMS FROM GOD...........*

GOD: Hello. You called me.

I, Me, Myself (IMM): Called you? No, who is this?

GOD: This is God. I heard your prayers. So I thought I will chat with you.

IMM: Sure, I pray. Just makes me feel good.
Actually, am busy now. In the midst of something, you know.

GOD: What are you busy with? Ants are busy, too.

IMM: Don't know. But I can't find free time. Life has become hectic.It's rush hour all the time.

GOD: Sure. Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

IMM: But I still can't figure it out. By the way, I was not expecting YOU to buzz me on instant messaging chat.

GOD: Well, I wanted to help you resolve your fight for time by giving you some clarity. I wanted to reach you through the medium you are comfortable with.

IMM: Tell me, why has life become so complicated?

GOD: Stop analysing life. Just live it. Analysis is what makes it complicated.

IMM: Why are we then constantly unhappy?

GOD: Your today is the tomorrow that you worried about yesterday. You are worrying because the act of worrying has become a habit. That's why you are not happy.

IMM: But how can we not worry when there is so much uncertainty?

GOD: Uncertainty is inevitable, but worrying is optional.

IMM: But then, there is so much pain due to uncertainty.

GOD: Pain is inevitable, but suffering is optional.

IMM: If suffering is optional, why do good people always suffer?

GOD: Diamonds cannot be polished without friction.Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials. With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

IMM: You mean to say such experience is useful?

GOD: Yes. Experience is a hard teacher, though. She gives the test first and the lessons afterwards.

IMM: But still, why should we go through such tests?Why can't we be free from problems?

GOD: Problems are Purposeful Roadblocks Offering Beneficial Lessons to Enhance Mental Strength. Inner strength comes from struggle and endurance, not when you are free from problems.

IMM: Frankly in the midst of so many problems, we don't know where we are heading.

GOD: If you look outside you will not know where you are heading. Look inside. Looking outside, you dream. Looking inside, you awaken. Eyes provide sight. Heart provides insight.

IMM: Sometimes not succeeding fast seems to hurt more than moving in the right direction.

GOD: Success is relative, quantified by others. Satisfaction is absolute, quantified by you. Knowing the road ahead is more satisfyin than knowing you rode ahead.

IMM: Sometimes I ask, who am I, why am I here? I don't know the answers.

GOD: Seek not to find who you are, but to determine who you want to be. Stop looking for a purpose as to why you are here. Create it. Life is not a process of discovery but a process of creation.

IMM: How can I get the best out of life?

GOD: Face your past without regret. Handle your present with confidence. Prepare for the future without fear.

IMM: Sometimes my prayers are not answered.

GOD: There are no unanswered prayers. Remember you will always get what you need when you need it, NOT necessarily what you want. Therefore at times the answer is NO.

IMM: Thank you for this wonderful chat. I think I understand now and I will try to be less fearful.

GOD: Keep the faith and drop the fear. Life is a mystery to solve, not a problem to resolve. Life is wonderful if you know how to live.And remember my Child, I am always with you! Call me anytime you want to chat!

Author Unknown

SOULMATES - Do they exist?

2005-06-29T19:11:00.000-07:00

i was reading a blog of a friend of mine that he shares with his gfren and there was one on soulmates..it got me thinking again...ive always asked myself this "is there someone out there who is only meant for you?"...wat r the chances of actually meeting him or her? if ur reading this...tell me wat u think...

supposedly the Chinese believe that "God made us in pairs...... something that goes along the line of God paired us by tying our ankles together using some sort of red string that is only visible to immortals. Then He sends us down to earth leaving us with a quest to find our other half. When we do succeed, the red string tying the both of you & your partner, can be seen again.

i did some reading online and it seems the concept of soulmates arose from Greek mythology. Supposedly, our ancestors once had 2 heads, 4 arms. They did something to offend some God so that God punished them by splitting them down the middle, resulting in the creation of humans. So as a punishment, we are condemned to spend our lives searching for the other half, our soulmates.

Another weird site actually had a mathematical equation for "soulmate ratio", which is like a cost benefit ratio

Soulmate Ratio = Total Love Benefit / Total Love Cost

"Your soulmate is the person who will maximize your soulmate ratio and vice versa. If another person exists that has the ability to give you a higher soulmate ratio than the person you are with, then the person you are with is not your soulmate." hmm must get me a Love Calculator:)

I feel that Soul mates doesnt necessarily mean the person has to be ur lover or spouse. It can be in any kind of relationship, which do not always include romantic love. Frens can be soul mates...best frens better still...
We tend to think of our soul mate as The One who is there for us and to make us feel complete. A soulmate for me i guess can even be someone who is a total opposite of u but can read ur mind and soul..Someone who balances the Yin and the Yang i guess..some may have their freaky moments...some dont...but i guess as long as the person is able to tap into ur soul, understand ur needs, read ur body language, n give it all to u...then may be she or he is ur Soulmate...how would u know for sure if he or she was ur soul mate? check for red string? i dont think so:) i wish i knew man...

So what if u dont meet ur soulmate? for me, as long as he is closest to it id be thankful....i guess when u do meet someone who is kinda near perfect...dont question too much...enjoy it...let urself slip into it...cos u never know she or he may be your soulmate!!!

for me....i dunno whether i'll ever meet him..or may be i have already but just didnt know it...sigh

If I had the Money!!!

2005-06-09T20:19:00.000-07:00

im so in love with this outfit...casual yet chic..my guy fren said i need to be 5'8" to wear it...monkey la he

this dress is sweet n simple...im not into over the top elaborate designs so this seems like a good choice. lovin the heels!!!

ok yes i knoe my boobs r too big to hide in that dress but im loving it...yes my boobs n the dress..wow wat a combo:)

im not so big on yellow but this dress is so sweet...a bit too girly for me but its just plain gorgeous...

this wedding gown is so simple, good for catholic wedding cos it aint too revealing but the design n the unique work on it is marvellous dont u reckon? i may not wear this dress though..but all in all its lovely..though i would get a better model...why the hell is she hunching for? sheesh!

My Baby Bro is Gone

2005-06-03T00:34:00.000-07:00

went to KLIA to send my baby cousin off last nite...he would be in Manchester by now...poor baby...cant imagine he left...miss him already...so so much!!! i really thought he was very excited until he whispered to me n Ta that wish he wasnt goin...matters of the heart:(

andy was being notty but i bet he will miss timmy in due time...uncle was emotional as usual...aunty was stronger than expected...but like i told her, he is a good kid!! he will manage...i guess my aunty n uncle raised very good kids with principles...proud of the 2 brats! but he is a monkey la...tellin everyone, his frens n aunty n uncle that i wanna corrupt him:) obviously with my great acting skills i acted innocent. i mean cmon la he is going to UK la for crying out loud..beer is bloody cheap..so i told him to go clubbing n drink like crazy...pot if its with responsible ppl la...but study hard too...there must be a balance....

cos i dont want him looking back n regreting he didnt do this or that cos of certain promises he made to certain ppl...i know i will never forget my uni life...its been great...the downs were really down but there were more ups n im thankful for that:)

well he will be back soon unless he plans to do his masters..he is such a darling...he n his bro...love them...i love the fact that after all these years we r still their Chechi's and they look up to us...its nice being a big sis!!! n he is not ashamed to say that me n Ta are the 2 gals she loves the most and hugged us even in fornt of his frens...thats so sweet...his fren is cool..fun ppl la...

i feel kinda special cos he only confided in me bout her..anyway i really hope one day he gets to experience wat i have experienced...

hope he has an even better life experience than me..yeah n bout making his single room a room for two, i really hope he just gets a pet:) dah la bloody UK gals love "chocolate"...haih some more he is so cute n a joker..they will fall in love with him plus he is so grunge..rock music..long hair..awesome personality....sigh

miss u timmy boy!!! i hope he comes back or stays there till i have enough money to visit...

like u said "janji rock"...peace

My Gals

2005-06-02T01:28:00.000-07:00

finally after so so long she sent me the pics...yay!!! yeah n the porno looking ones..didnt know there were that many!!! damn....and for the hundredth time im no pornstar n i wasnt coming on to nobody...i guess they were jealous cos im sexy hehe..thank gawd they dont read this if not all hell will break lose and the comments will be abundant...n ill never hear the end of it!

loved this the most...miss camera woman wasnt in this one though sorry

STRIKE A POSE!!!!!

i miss PD..the trip with the gals was awesome..though our room was haunted...it was a nice experience and till today we talk bout it without fail...even the other day when we met i got whacked cos apparently I made them aware of "IT"s presence...well sharing is caring wink wink....

im feeling mixed emotions...they started work yesterday all except one of them who has travelled across the ocean to return to my roots it seems....complicated story that one....but at least they filled me in on wat was happening...darlings i tell u!

im happy for em but was kinda sad for me...but im not dwelling on it..i guess it happened for a reason...most prob cos God wanted me to learn some patience, a skill i lack:) its a good thing too at least before i start work i can learn to drive again...yohoo gonna get my car in a week yay...its not brand new cos my sis is giving me her old kancil as she is buyin a new car...so i have to practice..just have to find volunteers who are willing to endanger their lives n drive with me....may be can bribe em with alcohol...that will sure work!!! but it only will work on the guys..who are darlings too mind u.. but imagine if i get posted to sabah or swk...then i gotta to leave Jean Pier behind sniff sniff...

starting work late also has its perks...i can take another vacation before i surrender myself to my work..but dunno la...not confirmed yet..but hey i hope i do get to go somewhere at least!!!

the 5 monkeys sure cant get of work but i bet we will have the routine meet up to bitch...ah yes our fav pastime...bitchin bout almost everything..n then shopping ..at least window shopping is a must:) and when its time to go home i miss them already...

its nice to know that in all the chaos and arguments we have we all love each other too bits..like duh the twins get all emo n teary when we leave or when they hear our problems and all...monkeys la the two of em..then u have the one thats scolds u, n one who supports u and the one that advises u...we r a weird bunch!!!

was just talkin to one of em and she made my day in a way...she said she doesnt know anyone who takes friendship seriously, appreciates and loves her friends more dearly than me!!!

now thats a first...but what she said was true , that it is my strongest quality but also is my weakest....

i dunno really know what to say to that....i just love my friends!!!

Stop overthinking! its not good for me:)

2005-06-01T18:03:00.000-07:00

Do I Think Too Much? YES!!!! Well not much these days...i find myself not over analysing things as i used to. i realised that things happen they way they are meant to happen n instead of wallowing in thought and trying to make things perfect, i should just do my best in whatever situation. and if doesnt work out the way i want it to, accept it, feel the pain ...then move on. there are bigger things to worry about....yeah yeah i still do think la at times cant help myself LOL...

Was reading this article by Dr Susan Nolen and she says that the more we actually worry the further we get from actually solving the problem and we fail to see that sometimes its just part of normal life! Like she said in the article, I guess i used to define myself in terms of my relationships and live my life for my man... which is utter nonsense when i think bout it now..loving the guy should not come at the expense of loving myself...haih what love does to you....

She said that even when we are in an unequal relationship or when you both want different things instead of trying to end it, overthinkers are more likely to analyse the situation and their feelings about it! or try to solve the situation...I agree, but whats the harm in trying la if u love the person, but then again it might get u no where..

And dont make excuses for anyone...if they want to, they can make em themselves like the all famous one, "but, he's got so much potential"...Dr Nolen says when women fall in love we not only fall in love with the man but their 'potential'...but the reality is that some people just dont evolve into the best they can be..so its unfair to the guy if i think he will evolve for me...if he doesnt want to evolve dont force him too..

Lower my expectations..like after so long i realised that sometimes people are not like me and i can not expect them to be...i guess its easier la when it comes to fitting expectations! like duh:)and yes Dont overdramatise everything...but im such a drama queen!!! getting demoted to the princess status soon.hopefully..*grin*

I actually started questioning my confidence when the rship with "THE ONE" ended..but hey i shouldnt sell my self short and now im a different person, n if i didnt have to go thru the break up, i would not be experiencing the change im experiencing now and I definitely wont be ready for the next one who might be "IT"...i guess every break up teaches me more about what i want and how i should get it and hopefully it brings me closer to meeting my perfect match:)

We Are Under Attack!!!!!!

2005-05-31T18:53:00.000-07:00

The headlines read : Kick the Bottle. Damn..just when i was looking forward to boozing real soon with the guys...after the "no smoking" campaign now this...We know la alcohol in "excessive" amounts are bad la...But we only do that sometimes *wink *wink....as long is everyone drives and gets back safe it all ends well...i know everytime its time to go i pray that my partners in crime get back in one piece..thats why i always have to ask wether there are ok enough to drive...ive been lucky, we all have been cos we r always safe and i trust my buddies to get me n their assess back in one piece...love them to bits...

then there is another shocker in the news today...this really shows the mentality of our goverment la..seriously..its damn bloody stoopid! they are trying to get cinemas to play our national anthem "Negaraku" before a movie starts, u know when they show movie trailers and all...shit wei...they are not forcing the cinemas to do it but ENCOURAGING them to do so...like duh...u think the cinemas wont do it? everyone will kow-tow to the government la..TGV Cinemas general manager said he will be pleased to do so...eeeee...at least the GSC guy said something sensible..he said that they screen many shows in a day n hoped that it wont affect the screenings and more importantly i think belittle the anthem itself...u think any Malaysian will want to get up their sorry asses and sing or even stand straight for that matter..im sure everyone will be talking and busy eating or even making out!!! as for me i know i wont be rushing to the cinema thinking shit la im missing some trailer..id rather go in time for the movie than to have to listen to the anthem blaring!!!! seriously by playing the anthem in cinemas u r not getting Malaysians to respect or even remember it, u r getting them to hate it!! i think there is a certain time n place for national anthems but it sure as hell isnt in the cinemas for crying out loud!!

what the hell is happening to Malaysia?

What is Your Star Wars Horoscope?

2005-05-31T18:24:00.000-07:00

You can be cruel and torment people who disagree with you.Deep down, there is a peace-loving, friendly side to you.You have a knack for inflicting pain on people and use your intellect during battle.Star wars character you are most like: Darth Vader

it is confirmed...to go to the Dark Side i am...does this mean i should give up Yoda-ism? never, never!!!
ok la sometimes i can be cruel...but now...im changing...learning certain things about me self...n how not to dwell on the lil things:) may be one day i can come back to the Jedi Order...but then again the Dark Side is kinda sexy...yohooo!!!
im losing it.

Check out your own at http://www.blogthings.com/starwarshoroscopes/

Mental Note

2005-05-30T23:21:00.000-07:00

When it comes to men, deal with them as they are, not how i'd like them to be...

Bo's Da Man

2005-05-30T20:04:00.000-07:00

Harold Bo Bice!!!!

Im so angry that he didnt win.. .American's must be deaf or something...They picked the country gal with heart n screaming voice over the southern rocker with soul? they must be crazy..but then again it is almost certain that he will score major record deals n i'll one of the first to buy it:) I really dont know what they saw in Carrie besides a sweet farm gal..no doubt la she can make in country music cos of her origin and the country twang in her voice. But to me, Bo was defintely THE American Idol..im guessing Americans dont really favour rock stars who are versatile...

I mean cmon la..just by watching him on stage u see a star who is already made..he owns the stage...bloody damn good performer n hellavu sexy:)
i gotta admit he did seem more nervous than Carrie but like Simon said that showed how much the competiton meant to him..how much singing means to him.

but i know he is definitely gonna make a record with Clive Davis who is one of the best producers ever. Imagine him n Sugar Money(his band) cutting a record with him...they could only dream of it a few months ago!
Speaking of his band, you can check out their website at http://sugarmoney.net/index.asp

its so cute cos at the info site on their gigs it was posted
"Sugar Money will not play Live again until Bo returns"
its good that they are really supportive of him..well hey they are gonna benefit from this anyways:)

its kinda sexy too cos he is no goody two shoes kinda guy:) He was busted twice; for marijuana possession, public intoxication, and possession of drug paraphernalia and possesion of cocaine......but he pleaded guilty and joined this drug rehab thingy..notty Bo! down right rocker to the core:) its nice knowing he has a Dark Side since im being drawn into the realm of darkness too..

doesnt he look like a Sith Lord to u in this pic?:)

ROCK ON BO!!!!!

"Because Live Music Matters"- Bo Bice

"You can sit there all day and talk about it, but you'll never know if you don't give it shot. Spending life, questioning life, is a waste of life."- John Cooper: Bassist / Vocals of SugarMoney

Love Actually

2005-05-30T00:30:00.000-07:00

i recently had a sleep over at my best frens place..we talked n talked about anything and evrything..u know how gals are..we are interesting creatures thats what we are:)

anyway we watched this movie, "Love Actually" cos she absolutely loved it..it was a very sweet movie..its shows different kinds of love..
"The characters are falling in love, falling out of love, some are with right people, some are with the wrong people, some are looking to have an affair, some are in the period of mourning; a capsule summary of reality. Love begins and love ends. They flirt a lot. They are all flirting with love. At all ages and social levels.. love is the theme."

Love between pornstars, the prime minister and his aide, a small kid and his first crush or as her calls it "the one"....an old rocker who is climbing back up the charts after battling his old heroin addiction is the funniest..his song sucks and he admits he...amazingly it tops the charts....then there is a guy desperate to have sex and believes that in order to do that, he should go to America because he thinks that American women will like him for being British cos of his cute accent!!!...but the one i loved the most was this guy in love with his best frens wife..it had the cutest twist...this was the best scene..cos i realised that sometimes even though u are not loved in return the way u want to be, as long as u love the person and he or she knows it, its enough....

its a heart felt movie...well if ur in that part in ur life where love is hurting u may be it aint that advisable cos i whacked my fren after the movie cos i was left feeling like shit!!! but it is nice la...the movie n whacking my fren...
its so weird this emotion called LOVE..cos its the mother of all other emotions...sadness, pain,joy,jealousy, happiness, loneliness,...ill never really understand it..i cant control it...i guess we just have to surrender to it just like they did in the movie..

in the end i guess it left me feeling fuck the "Fuck Love" theory...i always have and still do believe in love..cos like the first line in the movie said "love is all around"....eventhough it hurts...

Love quotes :

"Some of us think holding on makes us strong; But sometimes it is letting go."-Hermann Hesse

"The richest love is that which lasts through time apart to someday be together."-Anonymous

"The course of true love never did run smooth."-William Shakespeare

"If you love somebody, set them free. If they return, they were always yours"-Anonymous

Part time Flasher?

2005-05-26T19:11:00.000-07:00

I had to write bout this..was just reading the papers...yes yes im at work but reading the papers..im too free...anyway lets not side track like i always do...i always do that. start a topic then jump to another one ....go on n on...then come back...its a girl thang...shit im doing it again:)

anyway the point of the blog is...the headline of the news reads "Be alert for Dirty Darth Vader, factories urged". apparently theres a guy dressed as Darth Vader who flashed bout 15 women at a bus stop in nilai!!! and flashed someother factory workers not much later...police havent caught the guy...he may be in hiding...but im guessing he will be easy to spot since he is dressed as Darth Vader and all:) Police think he may be some crazy person..well like duh! But maybe... just may be, all he wanted to do is show off his light saber...it glows!!!! May be its a recruitment stunt to get people to the dark side...its a ploy to disillusion women to join the dark side...after all its damn bloody long...it glows and it makes that buzzing sound that gets u feeling all warm and fuzzy inside...not to mention all turned on baby!!!

damn feel like a traitor to my master Yoda...but the dark side is calling me...im in a dillema....

Tatataratititi....tatatatratititi

2005-05-26T18:08:00.000-07:00

Watched star wars again last nite...bloody 12.10am wei...obviously i fell asleep a few times in between the shaking of a coke in front of my face every 5 minutes!!! mt fren checked to see wether i was sleepin and to his amazement me n my fren next to me were asleep! dont get me wrong. i absolutely loved the movie! i cried too...hehe..typical of me getting emo...but last was too sleepy to get all emo:) creid at the part where Obi Wan n Anakin were fighting and then he got his limbs chopped off near the larva...the lines was what got me!
but the ultimate line in the movie was from Master Yoda himself. seriously, i felt he was talking to me...yes yes laugh all u want but seriously it gave me a light bulb moment. its was from the scene when Anakin went to seek advice from Yoda.."Train urself to let go of everything u fear to lose"... thats so true for me...and i guess i gotta learn to let go of certain things...n if they come back to me then ill know for sure...After i watched it the first, i couldnt help but indulge in some Yoda-ism of myself...love the way he talks..its grammatically Yodally correct:) oh yeah there was this guy with a light saber in the theatre...a blue one mind u...that he switched on at the end of the movie so it glowed in the dark(the first time i watched it)....everyone had a good laugh. some people go really all out i guess...my fren said im becoming a true star wars fan cos Yoda talked to me...ok la ok la .."i" felt he talked to me!!
What he said was true for me too...i really wanna watch the last 3 episodes now.
haha i got the ones with the special effects and someone is jealous!!! if he only would asked nicely...hai...its so easy:)
i actually had this dream of a space craft that came n took me n my frens away for a while...we were conducting some telepathic communication with the outer world..it was so cool...cant really describe it much here...but if u see me in person i mite go on n on...n we all know I can:)
ok i bet the title of the blog is a bit blurry to most of u...its actually a part of a song created by this lil gal who joined a competition on Traxx FM if im not mistaken...the callers had to sing the the Star Wars movie theme...damn bloody funny...my fren n i were in stitches...
ah yes that drive brings me to the big question "are women good navigators?"...i have too agree not as good as men in general...but some women are..like me for instance...n i dont get ant credit for it:( i wonder why?

Testing testing

2005-05-17T23:16:00.000-07:00

this is my second blog...the first one is crap plus eveytime i try to post something there are bound to be errors!!! so this is like a trial post...if this blog screws up to, im giving up blogging(if there is such a word)!!!

just finished watching oprah...yes yes im a fan but i aint fanatic! there was a group of women arguing whether they should be "Super-Moms" or "Super-Wives"... some lady wrote an article on how women these days undergo this transition once they have kids...they lose their identity as wives and hop on the bus to total motherhood!!! husbands are neglected and divorce rates go up. well the supermoms say wat they are doing is rite. n thats husbands should wait their turn to be loved!! wtf? n their turn only comes whenthe mom decides, or when the kid turns 11, 18 , 21...whichever age the moms let go.
the supermoms aint doing a great job either if u ask me...they dont even love their husbands, when in reality the primary rship was the marriage between the 2 in the begining!!!
they were saying that they were having less sex but some feel their husbands should understand....n should wait till the moms willingly devote less time to their kids...thats sad cos its like sex is a chore and it seems like only the men are into sex!!! cmon! no wonder men get sick n leave or wander of...women are too busy being mothers and not wives...yes priorties change but it doesnt mean u scarifice ur husband!!! and all the lines like " i try n give him all the sex he needs" is crap...have all the sex in the world cos U want to as well not like ur doing him a big favour...if he needed a favour he has other means....

i guess its wrong to raise ur kids thinking that they are the center of their mother's universes. they should see love between the parents that should in fact give them security...over-mothering is bad too...let the husband have some space for fathering...fathering...thats such a sexy trait... well at least for me...

the women were also condemning the writer cos she said she loves her husband more than her kids. i feel the love between the two is different...i will love my husband romantically and obviously have the maternal instnct to love my kids....n continue to love both esp my husband cos i fell in love with him and had the kids with him!!

well hopefully im as passionate as this when i actually get married...more importantly when i do have kids...

all i know is that my husband is damn lucky bastard:)